what shold i do???

yesterday night i came out with the toughest decision i have to take..
yet i feel guilty of what i did not towards my decision but the feeling i hurt another person..i just have to do it because i dont want to regret end of the day..i dont want to be unfair to myself and to her..
she cried all day i guess..but is right for both of us....i wanted to be her best buddy but she not taking that way so too bad la..and i did mistake by saying i love her which i forced myself to do that..and it keep haunting me!!so i just said it out..
seriously is very hard to trust some of the girls now days..sometimes i think being good is good but actualy it doesnt!!well my heart just so weak now!!i dont get it why some pretenders are not awarded oscar award duh i mean they have really good and natural talent..in front can see the ring above them but they are hiding big n long stinky tail behind them!!!
im just so pisst off!!!!argghhh...well the girl that loves me actually is a nice and good girl..she can be a great lfe partner..but the thing i dont have the feeling for her..the best part i can smell something funny happening and is someone quite close with me..whatever it is i hope god forgives them..
after breaking up with my WONDERFUL ex i decided to socialise around which is so not me..but i enjoy it cause im happy doing it and leave smile on every1's face!yet i dont understand why some GIRLS taking advantage on me.. i respect girls and this how im being treated?or am i beibng too good?should i be a BAD guy?damm girls are HEADACHE GENERATOR!!!i come to a point that i hate girls...but some of my girl frens who are close to my heart is the 1 i trust and i can count on them..they are real GIRLS!!!